Somayya

persuasive thesis-ish: becoming too reliant on structure and organization (while required for success) can hurt one's image of oneself (we are not rigid and objective, silly). it can also be interpreted as the idea that as you define yourself with outside accomplishments and keep yourself extremely busy, it’s hard to understand who you are. when you’ve devoted so much of your time and though to becoming the best version of yourself, rather than just purely yourself, it's harder to discern between who you are and who you want to be. touching and pulling and manipulating my face is what i do when i dissociate. not sure if this is a relatable issue but that’s why i called this video "free time", i hate (true) free time. moments spent alone with no externally-assigned task (like working, studying, volunteering, or hanging out with people- socializing is perceived externally, thus not free time in my definition here) is a waste of a moment and fills me with guilt so that i obsess over the definition of myself. i know logically that's not how free time should be spent, and thus i chose to try and show that loss of self. but once the next responsibility comes up, all you can do is just collect and move on. i could ramble for hours on this.

any interpretation is fine though. go nuts.

acting n camerawork n editing n the music gibberish n everything else in between: somayya upal (and a handy tripod)